Saturday, January 28, 2012

lazy Saturday..

As I'm typing Emma is at the store with my Paw-Paw while Tucker plays with all of her toys! :) She looks forward to these trips knowing that he will buy her whatever type of candy she wants, no matter the sugar content or the messiness it may create. I secretly love these times though, I never got to spend time with my great-grandads, but when I was younger my summers & weekends were spent at my Paw-Paw's house..next to my Daddy he is definitely my hero. I know she has no idea now but when she gets older she will look back on the times she spent outside "helping" him with a project & realize just how special that time was.

On another note, we are trying to get Tucker to try some more "advanced" sippy cups, the one he takes now is the Nuk training cup for 6mos. +, it's by far his favorite & up until now he hasn't wanted anything but that besides his bottle. He is taking more & more steps everyday, which makes me so happy and proud as his mommy. So many people tell me, "oh just wait, you'll be wishing he was back to crawling"..I just tell them I've waited 2 years for this moment so I will suck it up when he starts getting into more stuff because it's been a long time coming! I sometimes think, "am I going to have to advocate for Tucker the rest of his life, trying to prove that his life is worth something?" The answer is yes, you will always have people who can't or won't believe he will do anything but the truth is he can do whatever he sets his mind to do. I sometimes dream about the day he participates in his first Special Olympics, or graduates from high school, it makes me want to cry because I know how proud & special these moments will be for him & me, too. He is already so smart & can flirt like no one else, my husband jokes that they need to have a father-son outing because Tucker gets all the ladies!!

Some of you know that I've started a Down syndrome support group in my area, we don't have that many Mommies right now but I'm praying that in time more will be willing to join & support one another..I am trying not to get discouraged but sometimes it's hard no to when everyone is telling you it's impossible. Also, Emma & I are hopefully going to visit our local ARC this week, I can't wait! Tucker won't be able to participate in anything until he's 18 but I would like to volunteer for them & do anything I can to help out so I hope they will allow me to do that.

That's it for now, I have one stinky little boy who's diaper needs to be changed! :) Hope everyone has a wonderful weekend!!

Tuesday, January 17, 2012

Three's a Charm!

I can't believe how long it's been since I posted last! A lot has been going on since I last posted, like our baby girl that's due in May! There has been a lot going on in the Down syndrome community also, like little Ryan who has modeled for Target & Nordstrom, he's creating quite a stir & people are seeing how valuable our kids are to society.  I am so thankful for that, as a mother it makes me so proud that the world is seeing that people with Down syndrome have something to contribute to society.

On another note, I hear people say all the time, "Oh you're so strong, I could never raise a child with special needs". I used to think this too, until God gave me Tucker. I don't think that I'm any stronger than any other mom I know, I just have to go through more on the emotional aspect of it..no one wants to see their child hurting. Those doctors don't know everything, I think they try to tell people the worst to prepare them, but I don't agree with that. Too many doctors these days try to play God, I'm so glad I have a wonderful OB who, despite the fact we didn't know about Tucker's "extra", told me he was a gift from God!  In the past two years I have laughed, cried, & worried more than I ever thought possible..but I wouldn't trade one second of it. I have also learned more than I ever thought possible, too...about myself, my husband, & my kids and how such a tiny little person can teach you so much. I still have my bad days, like when I see someone and they ask me how old Tucker is and I tell them he's two and they look at me like I'm crazy. Or when someone's child who is younger than him is walking and they ask me how old he is...by the way, I don't go out of my way to tell anyone, I think I almost see it as if it's a priviledge for them to know he has Down syndrome, so most people just walk away wondering.  Most of the time I only tell if someone pushes the subject, it shuts them up quick! But mainly, I don't see Tucker as Down syndrome, that's just something he has, along with thyroid issues, Pulmonary Hypertension, & other health issues..so why would I say, "Hi, this is Tucker, he has Down syndrome"? To me he is just our silly little boy who loves to make everyone smile.

With the noise of kids playing in the background and baths needing to be done I'm headed off to finish up my Mommy duties for the day. Sorry if it was a little choppy, trying to cover lots of things in a short amount of time & lots of pauses for 2 needy little kiddos.